Finding My Peace

This post is for the people like me who lack support from those they love the most. It would appear that most others have a supportive network of people that they can count on to be there no matter what life may bring, but I'm not one of those people. I have always found myself alone not having others to share my moments of victory or to lean on during difficulties. It does seem strange. However, the good news is that due to lack of people support I have evolved into a highly independent self-supporting individual. I don't need anyone ever. The sense of freedom I'm given from not desiring the company of others is tremendous. It enables me to create each day in a way that brings great peace without the need to ask permission from anyone. I can spend the entire day working in my yard if I so choose without having to stop for interruptions. I can become consumed by the peace I find from standing on the earth and nurturing my plants and grasses in my lawn. Aging certainly has its benefits. The power that I used to give others has changed totally. I love me despite their treatment. I am no longer sent into a downward spiral due to their arrogant disapproval or unfair reactions. I no longer look to others for validation. I now encourage and tell myself what I always wanted to hear from others, and these words are so much more meaningful. I have become my own best friend. A friend who is always present. Ever ready to lend a helping hand. Counting on and connecting with others is completely overrated.

I am one who believes that our lives are scripted. I also believe that before we arrived in our current bodies, we agreed through coercive measures with other dimensional beings to play a particular part in this theatre of humanity for as of yet unknown reasons. I believe after many years of study that I was never intended to be surrounded by supportive people. The script for my life was written with the intension of me learning to survive in this realm without others, and I find myself to be accomplishing the purpose more as the years are passing. I had parents who taught me to stand on my own two feet. They seldom took part in my life, but I hold nothing against them. I do believe they were simply following the script for their part in my life. I also had 3 brothers who to this day have made me feel like an outcast. I was considered crazy in their opinions and was never invited to their annual "bro's trips." To their male chauvinist mentalities, I wasn't worth consideration. I also married a man very similar to my brothers who offered me very little support and then after we divorced did everything possible to destroy the little amount of self-worth I held. However, I still stand. Lastly, and the most painful of all is that my three children fall into their similarly scripted roles perfectly. They are distant and view me as unimportant. In the few times I have asked for assistance they were always too busy. Nevertheless, my life has evolved into a place of peace and harmony within my own being void of needing acceptance from those most would consider necessary. I have learned in my 62-year journey that most people only "love" you when they need something from you. Sadly, once your purpose in their lives is fulfilled, they are done with you tossing you aside like the garbage. I'm so thankful I no longer care about what anyone else thinks and am not in a position to be fearful of losing someone that I depend upon. My opinion of the person I am becoming is paramount to me, and I love who I am despite my imperfections. The best part is that I'm learning to allow myself to be transformed into the best version possible, and nurturing myself is a huge part of the strenuous process.

February: Reality Check

Sun, Feb 9

Super Bowl LIX · NFL

Final

Chiefs

Away, 15-2

22

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40

Eagles

Home, 14-3

Team	1	2	3	4	T
Chiefs	0	0	6	16	22
Eagles	7

It's taken me a little while to organize my thoughts in order to write about February 2025 due to the fact that there are so many changes happening. In fact, I think we need to come to terms with the possibility that America may experience war on our soil related to a plan of restructuring soon. I say this because our POTUS is taking steps resembling a bully on the playground picking a fight with anyone around. Interestingly, the score of the Super Bowl may give us a clue. The biblical number of 40 is closely connected to a time of trial and suffering. Jesus was in the desert for 40 days, but he made it through triumphant after being tempted by the devil. In comparison, the Eagles being America will win as the score of the game symbolizes, but there will be a great time of trouble given by the Chiefs my friends.

If you disagree, allow me to expand. First, he has imposed tariffs on Canada, Mexico, along with China and all are retaliating. I have seen reports that China is sending military vessels to the coast of Canada preparing for war. We the people will suffer it would seem. Also, under the direction of the POTUS, DOGE is systematically dismantling our government department by department. As I write thousands of government workers unable to give an account of "5 things" to justify their position are being terminated and houses are going up for sale all over the DC area. Fraud, waste, and theft are being uncovered government wide, and we the people are shocked at how our hard-earned tax money has been allocated. Land transactions and deals are also happening angering many. Greenland, Gaza Strip and the Panama Canal seem to be falling into our government hands, but BlackRock is involved who is by far a power-hungry entity, so can these deals be good? Turning the trashed Gaza strip into the next Riviera seems ridiculous. Our POTUS states that all these changes are necessary for the safety of America and peace in the world, but is he being honest?????

How about the topic of stimulus checks being discussed again to compensate taxpayers for the taxes we have paid which have been stolen, but will we really see this reimbursement? Will we feel properly compensated? Strangely, our POTUS is also ending our Abraham Lincoln coin we call "pennies" due to its manufacturing cost outweighing its value. Is the ending of this 1787 coin symbolic? Abe is a founding Father we admire. Is this discontinued coin a hint to the dismantling of the America we now know? Plus, he has created a BITCOIN strategic reserve which has jaws dropping. Capital gains taxes on American crypto's ending is rumored. Is our traditional centralized banking system being threatened? Will our current financial system stand, or will it fall to the advancement of technology? How about Zelensky being escorted out of the oval office due to his argumentive attitude? How can such a punk even be allowed in power and how can he not be grateful for the billions we have sent to aid his military? There are just too many bazaar events occurring to discuss in this brief condensed post.

JFK Jr has been appointed to help increase the health of our country, but what's strange is Trump's previous stance on vaccinations has taken a 180. His previously named "warp speed" vaccine program is currently under scrutiny. It would seem the experimental vaccine has caused an increase in deaths and cancer among many. My question is why would Trump seem so fickle? Has he placed JFK Jr in place to make amends for his previous poor decision? We can hope he now understands that the pharmaceutical sector is all about the money and not about the health of America.

Nevertheless, despite all the craziness happening and on a lighter note I have enjoyed watching all the Tik Tok creators imitating Kendrick Lamar's controversial super bowl half time performance. People of all shapes and sizes and ages have made very funny videos duplicating his step to the left and step to the right dance moves. At the time of the half time show most of us watching it didn't like or understand the entertainment choice due to its lack of talent, but America has again made lemonade out of lemons which is very much admired by me. We are a resilient culture for sure.

So, with all that being said, and from my perspective I think we need to be wise by paying close attention. We need to be careful about who we trust. Sadly, it would seem that our much-loved POTUS is just another puppet. There is no way in hell that he has single handedly been able to accomplish all these changes on his own in such a short time since taking office. I'm convinced after many years of study that there are many characters at work behind the scenes who are diligently working to dismantle our government with the intension of ushering in a "reset," but only time will tell for sure. In conclusion, whether we like it or not everything is changing, and huge things are coming so we need to stay at the ready. However, the good news is that just like an approaching hurricane, we can hope for the best, and for us here in Louisiana we are very familiar with this type of storm.